A lot of people heard about physical abuse relationship , it’s simple to detect a physical abuse relationship but not an emotional abuse relationship .
Do people realised that they are in an emotional relationship ??
Most of the people do not realised they are in one , unless they are out
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If you not sure you are in one and your heart say that you are in one when you see my title …
Pls read my story of my emotional abuse relationship
I was in a emotional abuse relationship for 4 years when I was with my previous man. Being with him is like a roller coaster . Sometime I am happy , sometime I am sad . There is never of a peaceful moment in my life when I was with him.
A short description of him
He is a very short and bad tempered person . Flirt . Parent divorced . Witness parent fighting since young . Cute . Playful
A lot of us people who came from a normal family will tend to pity him for his not so good childhood . Most of us will tolerate any nonsense of their bad tempered and forgive them numerous times for being unreasonable .
When I was with him, even a small event like I am late for picking him up, will trigger him to shout or angry at me. For numerous times , I have to endure with all these anger throwing at me .
Some Events that he throw his anger at me :
1) Playing with him , and hurt him with words or alittle too rough when playing hurt him physically.
2) being late
3) lost my way when I am the driver . Careless driving
4) argue with him
5) being cocky with him
6) when he is hungry
7) when I did not do the things he told me to do
8) when I am angry or unhappy with him ( basically I cannot show my emotional side)
Some of his reactions:
1) Shout at me on TOP of his voice using vugar language
2) throw things at me , but he is not aiming at me but near
3) criticise and say nasty things like ” U are really a lousy person , why are you so lazy !!!! ”
4) chase me out of his house
5) throw all my clothes out of the window
6) break off the relationship
I feel like I am on a land mine!!!!! Anytime I will step into a bomb. My life with him is living in fear.
Every week I will trigger the bomb once or twice or more . I really do not know why he is angry with me all the time !!!!!
As time goes by , I always question myself :
” Am I such a lousy person ? ”
” Why is he always angry with me ??? What I have done wrong ??? ”
” I am not good enough for him ? ”
Soon my thoughts became :
“Yeah , I am a lousy person , I am worst , I am lazy ”
Everytime I am being conditioned with these inconsiderate words that came out of his mouth.
I fall deeper into a Low self esteem , demoralized , self doubt about my ability and myself, no confidence in all things pit hole.
The worst thing is …. I did not realised that I became like that . I did not know that I am losing myself Everyday when I am with him. Bit by bit I fall deeper into the hole unknowingly.
None of my friends realised that I am emotionally hurt as I am a person who is very good at hiding my emotions.
He did not accept me as who I am . I can’t express my emotional with him . For 4 years in my relationship with him . I can count the number of times I show my anger with him is like less than 10 times .
Because I know that when ever I show my unhappiness toward him , he will be more angry with me . And I have tolerate his anger again . Even I am unhappy with things that he have done , I will not show or tell him, I will keep to myself .
Frankly speaking if things have not took an 180 degree turn , I think that I will be married to him . I really can’t think of my life with this man now . It’s it really a torture to myself and my soul .
I , Thank Universe for plotting events that , make my heart die off . I also Thank my mom for telling me this since young :
” leave the man if he hits you , he is a lousy man “
Because all these 4 years he never really hurt me physically , that why I stick to him for so long . The first time he physically choke me in the wall , the moment I know my love for him is dead. Instantly !!!! Also because he fall in love with another woman . Heard that they are getting married soon . I will bless Them and hope they have a blissful marriage .
No ones know that they are in am emotional abused relationship . If your above situation is like mine . I advised u to leave the relationship NOW!!!! I know it takes a lot courage , he will not change for the better ,believe me , only worst .
Emotional abused normally will lead to Physical abused
If you are in one or your friends or anyone who you know they are in one . I do hope they can PM me and I hope I can help them . I am still new to WordPress .. Is there a PM function ….? I will leave my email in the about section .
I shall end my journal here . One of my quote .
Love & Light