2016 is coming to an end soon. Recently I have decided to make Year 2017 “A ME Year”
What is a ME Year ?
To me, ME Year is a year where I focus and invest on myself . I have spend so much of my life chasing after one relationship to another relationship. This time round , I want to spend the time and energy on MYSELF. I want to give myself a chance where I do not need to focus on other people especially on relationship.
My weakness have always been my love relationship . Each of my relationship last me around 2-4 years .
How many more years do I have to invest on a man ?
Am I disappointed for all the fruitless relationship ? Yes I am ….. But I have learn a lot from all my past relationships .
In fact , I just realised only recently that I did not learn the most important lesson from these relationships:
TO LOVE MYSELF ❤️
It’s not to say that I do not love myself . Let’s just say that , subconsciously 70% of the things that I do, might be because I want to be in a fruitful relationship (meaning , I just want to get married off) or I just want my man to know my worth and my attraction.
My main intention and focus is My Man , My relationship
Now I am shifting the intention to “ME” . A year where is all about “ME”. A year where I cultivate my inner and outer self . A year where I get to know all about myself all over again. A year where I make Friend and understand myself .
A year where I love myself unconditionally.
Most of our life , we have spend so much time seeking approval and validation from others. Spending our time to get to know , understand and love OTHER people , except OURSELVES.
How come we never do that to ourselves?
All we did to OURSELVES was to :
blame , compare , guilt , hurt , scold , despise and etc
The most important person is “ME” .
I am not saying to be a narcissist . From my understanding narcissist is obsess with themselves and this is not loving yourself and this is not LOVE.
I am still learning to love myself more . I will write more about my experience and process along the way of loving myself .
Thanks for reading my journal .
Thanks Universe for all the signs that you have given me .
Love & Light